i admit that the weather is getting really hazy.
actually it seemed to have started on thurs?
but i noticed no difference.
i have horrible observation skills.
and i will finally declare that it is super hazy!
looking out of the window now.
all i can see in a distance is a blur.

i m getting eye irritance alr.
and it is not nice :(
affecting my mood for studying lar.
looks like i would have to hide in the aircon room all day so i can mug and mug mug!
however the problem is that my mugging/studying mode refuse to come back lar.
i get distracted by little things.
the temptation to switch on the comp.going to the kitchen and search for food to eat.watching shows.
i cant seem to sit down and study properly.
and the eye irritance is giving myself a bloody excuse to sleep.
arugh!

i know im weird
wanting to have my mugging mode back and becoming a study freak and yet again.
at least today i played like crazy.
p.s i was alone at home.
and dont worry i didnt do anything silly/foolish.
maybe some unwanted thoughts are going through my mind.
i gonna refuse thinking about them.

mugging/studying mode please come back!
i still have two more relatively impt papers to go.
so i must mug!
i dont like studying when all that is in my mind is sleep.
how tiring can that be.

its getting seriously blur outside.
kinda cool.
dreamy feel.
but it just not so nice after all.
if you are the one breathing in those polluted air.

looking at my photos and pictures just now.
i have realised many things changed.
either from the beginning of the year or last year.
people.things.relationships.
those decisions we have to make.
those misunderstandings with others.
those change in character or appearance.
the pics made me miss the old times.
right now complications step in.
before we even decipher what is right from wrong.
when misery steps into one.
would u rather keep it to yourself or just show it.
making one person upset or the whole world upset.
making people arnd you worry or just simply break down inside.
feigning happiness or cry openly.
that kind of decisions step in.
i hate it when a decision must be made.

i think thats all for now!
bye (: