HELLO.

i actually studied during the weekend.
surprise surprise!!!!
haha.
got that sudden urge to do my hw and study lar.
and partly is due to my sis using the comp lar.

ytd went out to study at macs.
with tz minshan ger lihui and goldie
in the end study for a while than go shopping.
haiz.
we saw ms yeo at macs waiting for her boyfriend.
we were like who is her boyfriend.
wad if it is tanteewee.
lucky it wasnt tanteewee.
haha.
when i really felt like studying some person suggested we go j8.
wah.
haha.
went to j8 to take neos.
the machine was pretty cool
but sadly we didnt really know how to use it.
after that tz lihui and goldie had to go off.
so me ger and minshan happily took another set.
we are pro-er now.
haha.
experience do count lar.
walked arnd for a while.
came home.
ate dinner and study.
can u believe how unremarkably hardworking i m?

today.
i studied oso ok.
dun think my hardworking spirit is short term.
quite long term lar.
i count 2 days long lar
painted my dnt toy today.
haha.
anyhow squeeze some colours out and paint.
i think the colour combo is ok.

haha.
ok.
i will not go back to study today le.
i shall panic about my retest for napfa tml during pe.
my legs are still hurting a fair bit.
it sucks!
i must get GOLD for napfa.
must be nicenice gold somemore lar.
i want to continue my 4 yrs consecutive gold!

((:

YO!!!
HI PPLE.

apologise for not blogging the last few days.
didnt have the mood to.
yup.

let me start from wed.
shall not elaborate on the details.
only thing is that the andnovation carnival this yr was a total FAILURE!!!
at least last yr's was nicer and more well organised i think.
this yr we just stoned around after the judges judged us.
and that's how i spent my 2-3 hours bah.
haha.

thurs.
had a really hard time staying awake in class.
as usual.
the time dragged on really slowly.
finally got through.
haha.
i didnt know that i make ppl arnd me leng diao so often.
that is gd lar.
at least i entertain ppl.
which is good news.
went to j8 with minshan ziai and jiangmei.
was feeling quite high for a while.
until i the sian diao mood was passed on to me.
thanks to ziai.
walao lar u.
but glad u xiang tong liao.
yay (:

today kinda sucked lar.
as in not the lessons.
the napfa test that occured a few hours ago.
i screwed up lar i think.
sit-up i got A.
but i do until my leg pain lar.
i oso dno why.
suddenly jiao chou jin.
haha.
sit and reach was okay.
but i was freaking pissed off with mrschong lar.
she tested me for sit and reach.
dno she see me bu shuang or wad
keep asking me to do again.
at first i do 48 cm one.
than in the end 44 cm.
wtf lar.
she made me do like 5-6 times i think.
she say must push slowly or wad lar.
aiyo.heck her lar.
shuttle run gto B i think.
not bad.
the floor super slippery.
i almost slipped.
and wasted a few secs
or else i can get A.
wah.
incline pull up.
the teacher was such an ass.
i got angry with myself for screwing up.
the teacher suck too.
asshole
standing broad jump.
couldnt really jump lar.
leg muscles were all aching.
jumped 160+ cm only.
so sad.

after that went amk central for a while
than went home.
leg muscles damn pain lar.

monday
assembly sucked as usual.
was perspiring like crazy.
haha.
rambutans.
get wad i mean.
it shld be durians instead.
aww. :p

pe
did the 5 stations.
i bound to suck this fri lar.
i realised that i have not been training.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

maths
mr tan flared up.
surprising leh.
he like so fake can lar.
flare up the voice change.
face same one.
haha.

lit
was ok.
supposed to do worksheet.
cos mrs lee wasnt felling well.
in the end she joked with us.
a human can even *ahem* with an animal.
arugh gross lar.

science.
tried to understand.
was guai and copied everything ms ong flashed.
test coming le. :(

english.
watch national velevet.
wanted to sleep but there was this siao kia carving the pen beside me.
all the strips flew all over the place.
oh yar and i woke up in time for the climax.
the show ended late.
we were released late as a result.

life science.
practicaly jus sat and stir that mixture.
wah boring.
but very funny.
i kept laughing.
ppl can change sooooooooooo much.
ppl in the past can be so hilarious.
ger he can self entertain leh.
haha.

went to causeway after that.
shop shop a while.
walked arnd.
didnt buy stuff.
go there to pei someone
went home after a while.


today
dnt
aye boring.
fell asleep during thoery.
but i listened lar.
dno wad he saying only.
haha.
than practical.
was doing my toy.
heck care lar.
i dun wna care about it.
-darling toy go and die bah.
haha.

mtl
did oral preparation.
i m bound to screw up oral.
haha.
i cant speak chi fluently lar.
wah.

sci.
today was normal.
dno do wad.
but just stuff everything in my brain.
later go digest lar.

cme.
wah.
msthoo pms again today can.
suddenly call us pri 2/5.
like hello.
who is more like a pri school student lar.
get a life can.
slept throughout the lesson.
it wasnt obvious lar.
i almost collapse.
her voice is so hypnotising.
can make me fall asleep.
-applause.

search for teachers to lend us laptop after sch.
i realised that some ppl are so bloody cold hearted can.
whahaha.
there are nice nice teachers here.
thanks you for lending us ur laptop MSYEO!
i am trying to drive at sth.
i dun think u will get it.
haha.
went to macs after that with ger minshan and lihui.
crapped our way through.
wah.
was laughing like shit today again.
haha.
i MUST laugh more lar.

wah i didnt get pissed today!

i realised that i have quite a good memory

i dun want to c that sad post anymore.
so i m updating ((:
ok actually i m not sad le.
feeling quite happy now.
yay.

friday
in the morning was feeling quite depressed but i got over it!!!
racial harmony.
2/5 wasnt oursleves today.
17 ppl actually wore enthic costume!!!
with 0% from last yr.
great improvement.
hehe.
but i still prefer the 2/5 who dun care.
haha.
recess was 1 hour.
aiya nth special oso lor.
had stomach pain.
wasnt allowed to put soya sauce in my fishball kway teow.
-curses.
it tastes so plain lar.
drank cold drink.
although not supposed to.
but cannot finish.
haha.
lesson was normal.
school ended.
was thinking and thinking if i should go trng.
cos i was not in the mood lar.
finally i went.
to pei someone.
i soooooooooooooooooo nice can.
haha.
trng was fun.
i was happy again.
tiring but we crapped like siao.

saturday
slept until 11plus.
slacked arnd the whole day.
didnt really study or do hw.
boring day lar.

today
wah i learnt something.
turn obstacles into growing processes or sth like that
dunno.
it jus reflected on me the last few days
did revisions today.
i dunno wad got into me lar.
but it is gd i guess.
tests comming le mah.

tml sch again.
wah toturous cycle.

this week has been a horrible week for me.
and to make matters worse.
i think today is one if the worst days of my life.

it seemed like really a trying year for me.
everything dun seem to be gg well.
i am just really tired.
plus all the things that happened today.
didnt know wad got into me.
i suddenly felt so depressed, sian diao and everything.
i seldom feel like that.serious.
maybe it is cos i dun think so much.
everything is jus gg on too quickly.
i cant catch up.
i miss the times.
when i was still a young, innocent girl.
unknowing wad is ahead of her.
living every day to the fullest.
now i spent each day with boredom, sadness.
i wna change it.
but it is different now.
being older = more matured.
and there is much more obstacles i have to overcome.
it is tough.
i overcame a couple.

but i just broke down today.
unknowing why.
why i m feeling this way.
wad is happening to me?
i m unsure.
someone please tell me.
someone please bring me to another place where things will always be perfect.
like in fairytales.
i know it is unrealistic but i sick of everything now.
i feel like ending my life.
asking everything to quit moving so fast.
but wads the use.
i know it is part and parcel of life.
wad can i do.
running away will not solve everything.
i must face the truth.

thanks ziai.
thank you for listening to me today.
although i know i cried like shit.
but thanks anyway.

and everyone that has always been there for me.
i love u ll loads.

i know that u ll always be there for me (:

i have learnt to appreciate

i m kinda pissed with myself today.
i duno why lar.

it started out quite fine for me.
except that i was supposed to be pissed lar.
haha.
i went crazy today.
according to the ppl seated arnd me
they said i m totally berserk today.
ok lar not so serious lar.
just was super high only.

later i started to become depressed lar.
cos i lost my appetite.
ok lar.
i looooove eating so it kinda sucks when i dun feel like eating.
i have no appetite to snack in class and everything.
damn bloody sad can.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
depressing can.
i duno why lar.
but i feel so sad after that.
and usually at abt 12 like tt i will feel hungry.
but i didnt.
didnt feel like eating lunch oso.
man qiang de eat it lar.
good news is i think my appetite is back!
after trng.
so be careful ppl.
i am back to snatch food from u (:

wahh.
trng today was normal.
i felt that time passed really slowly lar.
like after sooooooooooo long only a freaking hour passed.
tiring.
but maybe i m not in the mood for trng today.
trained in the rain.
was super duper pissed with myself.
i felt like cursing and swearing and screaming.
guess it is the disappointment in myself.
maybe i really do bother
unsure in myself.
wth.
must have confidence girl.
match was uper duper tiring.
half an hour at one go.
maybe i do prefer GA.
not so confined i guess.
i really must jiayou.
but sth's pulling me back from doing my very very best.
haiz.
shall ponder over it.
i guess.

lalalala.
i off (:

it is nearing the end of today.
aye.so fast.
havent really enjoy myself yet.
-sobs

let me recall wad i have been doing today.
couldnt really sleep so woke up quite early.
8++
super early right.
my sis didnt go school.
she was sick.
i thought i had the comp to myself the whole morning
watched tv and used the comp.
than slacked around.
did some studying for science.
cos i seriously dun understand a single thing she was saying
now i understand liao.
than had lunch although i didnt feel like eating.
after that.
slept and slept until duno wad time.
went to bathe.
than after that watched tv.
slept again.
until now (:

wad a typical boring day
i didnt go shopping today.
uber sad.
everyone was busy :(
i am currently having the urge for a shopping spree.
although i have my limits.
wahhhhhhhhhh.

tml will be another typical day
time passes really quickly.
soon the common tests will come.
i seriously hope i wont flunk the tests.
i know that ever since term 3 started i sort of lost the motivation to study.
wad happened girl!!
wake up!!!!
jiayou.

i wna have confidence in myself.
it is hard.
but i ll try =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYLLLL!
wah older liao :)
thanks for the postcard =DDD

today was fine.
only that i was feeling not so well in the morning.
had pe.
did some silly warmup thing.
than do some stations thing to practice napfa
do until wana die lar.

later had dnt
many ppl were late.
teacher scold and scold.
lalalalala.
than only do thoery.
boring.
ger showed me some guy.
ok lar.quite shuai.
haha.now she dun wan superman alr.
but this guy better lar.

recess.
wanted to grb a bite b4 heading up but long queue liao.
buy drink.
cannot finish.
threw away lor.
later hungry than took food from the others.

chi.
go through worksheet.
than it started raining.
everyone started to cheer.
than i was like dun rain now, rain later during 2.4 run

science.
dun understand a single thing ms ong is talking about.
duno wad relation it has with txtbk.
tml must go read!!!

eng.
ms thoo wasnt here.
she gave us worksheet.
crapped my way through.

bell ring.
went to eat.
and buy sweets and everything.
made myself mentally prepared for the run.
reached yck stadium
waited and tried to sleep.
failed.
was feeling quite nervous
went to find daphne and talk to her.
sorry chopstick if i abused u just now.
thanks for letting me hit u :)
haha.
i am not dao-ing siangyee.
she is so happy lar.
our turn to run.
jus ran lar.
thankfully i had my mentos and i told myself not to stop.
although i did for a while and kena scolded :)
thank you ppl for cheering me on.
i think my stamina improved.
thanks to trngs =DD

giants.
i m proud of all of u (:
u ppl rock!
2/5
yay.gd job ppl.
:DDDDDDD

lalala.
i am quite proud of myself.
but i can do better :)

i m going to sleep in tml
haha.

P.S: daphne/jocelyn/me had almost the same number.
0014/0114/0214
spot the similarities?

friday
happy birthday sarahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
hope u liked the present we gave u (:
dun think so much about other things ok.
have fun (:

well fri was ok.
eng oral sucks lar.
the passage was ok.
i think i read it kinda fluently ((:
the picture convo there was pratically nothing to talk about.
msthoo kept prompting.
i started to get nervous.
convo had two topics.
i was trying to crap through but nothing came out of my mind.
arugh!
the bell rang.
i was the last person for the period.
everyone started coming out of their classes.
msthoo didnt end the oral.
started freaking out.
when it was over i ran in.
relieved and everything.

at the end of lesson had to arrange tables for the o lvls listening compre.
everyone ban1 their books to the locker.
haiyo then super ma fan lar.
make us ban1 the tables.
i didnt help
-suddenly feels so guilty
i was busy copying hw haha.

netball trng after that.
sec1s had friendly with clementi town and sengkang.
we shouted at them until almost qi4 si3
nevermind all of u still have half a yr to jiayou.
must not slack hor.
find the passion in u.
confidence.

sec2s were kinda bored cos we did nth but stone and stone.
than finally coach allowed us to play amongst ourselves!!
i hope i played better.
getting used being a GA le
only thing is i must work on my lobes
coach said i improved!!
but i musnt be to happy.
i still got alot to work on.
aiyo chopstick wad's wrong with u ytd?
lets jiayou 2gether
everyone. ok?

today
went to the dentist.
he duno do wad to my braces.
luckily today not pain!
ate lunch and came home.
my sis friends came over for proj.
arugh!
they used teh comp and i was so freaking bored.
i was also kinda pissed duno why.
haha.
but now at least i get to used the comp :)

bye.

i loooooooooooooooooooove today :)
haha.
u might think that i am crazy but i am not.

be patient ppl i will tell u soon.
whahahahahaha.

aiya being a long long day today.it sucks.
but not so bad.
first period eng
msthoo was not here for class.
gave us worksheet but i didnt do lar.
was sleeping.
having such a great time to catch up on rest =)
than after that is history.
was reading mag so didnt really pay attention to the lesson.
recess
was uber duper hungry so ate quite alot.
didnt poke any juniors today.
see i m so nice bhb
science
msong wasnt in school also.
marked the theory workbook.
but in the end i mark a bit than went to my dreamland again.
hehe.
art was next.
everyone rushed up to the art room.
scared to become punished i guess.
in the end mrs kamal was later.
and very late.
actually quite.
did some art thing.
i forgot.
than mrs kamal wrote half of her name.
whahahahaha.
maths mr tan never come.
three cheers!
but got worksheet to do.
ci
form and co-form teacher not here
so another free period.
yay.
actually today dun come to school also can.

i guess there is nothing much to blog about le.
the reason i blogged is because of the free periods today
i was super duper happy cos of this??
ok.
bye =)

starting to rain this few days.
soooooooooooo nice =)
but uber nice for sleeping in.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

ytd couldnt rmb all the facts.
have stm u see.
but i can rmb after school
went gyming!!!
in yio chu kang.
forgot to bring towel
had to purchase from them.
was on the treadmill for a while.
ran until 1.6km was kinda tired.
so went arnd doing other stuffs.
actually wanted to do weights but didnt in the end. =)
and i actualy didnt stone.
haha.
was kinda cool working out.

today.
uber uber nice weather to sleep!!!! i soooo sound like a pig
but i had to drag myself out of bed so i wont continue sleeping.
there was no assembly today.
super yay!
but that gave msthoo extra time to do oral.
boo =(
she went from 40 today.
gosh it is freaking me out now lar.
who knows how she will test tml?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cannot lar.
i will die b4 i start oral.
recess
wah i think that everyday linkai and jiaxin kena bullied by us.
so poor thing.
chinese
was crapping my way through my compo.
lalala.
had a worksheet to do.
in the end copied lar!
haha.

i declare that wed will be the day where i will be easily irritated.
cos of srp/ipw.
someone please take away this stupid projects.
i will soooooooooo appreciate it.

netball was normal.
did the usual stuffs.
ball passes and ball drills.
i think i did ok-ok lar.
not exactly putting extremely high hopes on myself.i guess.
game did normal.
suddenly coach came in with 3teams playing.
super messy
quite fun lar.
i think ppl who were looking they will be like
wad are they doing so many ppl chasing a ball.siao x)
i made a nice interception.
but sadly only one.
maybe i will continue and jiayou!!

forgot to add on mon
p/s thanks chopstick for the bracelet although i broke it
pp/s msthoo squashed a cockrach on mon.ewwwwwwwwwww.

it rained today :)
gosh i am sooooooooo happy cos there is no need to go down for assembly.
usually i would stand there and perspire like siao.
whahahahahaha.
pe today sucks lar.
i dun like to run!!!!
stupid napfa.
i was praying for rain ytd so we dun need to run outside.
but we still had to run.
aye wad's the use of integrity lar.
tml going with some class ppl to gym.
train for napfa??
but i think i would be just sitting there and stone.
haha.
napfa is next week.
i guess i ll have to miss trng for the whole week.
cos of the bloody napfa.arugh
maths is total rubbish.
i listened a little
i jus copied the graph and went to sleep.
haha.

I DECLARE LIT AS ONE OF THE BEST LESSONS IN THE WORLD.
ok not lit lar.
but mrs joanne lee is really funny.
she made the whole class laugh like we never did.
she understands us
i enjoy lit soooooooooooo much now.
how i wish she was our eng teacher.
haiz.
it is one of the many lessons where i can enjoy myself.
three cheers :)

science
normal.
eng
some ppl had eng oral.
i am not nervous yet.
but when the time comes.
i tell u i will totally freak out.
10 mins talking to ms thoo.
omg.imagine that.
wow.

aroma chemistry.
i love peppermint, white musk and vanilla the best.
haha.
i love my perfume :)
the teacher says my bench talk too much but wadevr.
thats how we are.

after that we went to amk central.
boring.
went to the normal places.
ger wanted to buy the jacket but we think it is not so worth it.
aye.

went home.
i m bored.
ok
bye =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i m bored.
was busy figuring how to do my maths homework jus now.
i realise that although graph is quite easy
it is very mafan
have to do alot of workings.
now i m too frustrated to plot a graph.
haha.

tml
sch reopens again.
and i will look forward to fri
than sat and sun will pass uber quickly and i am back to school
arugh!!!!!
the toturous cycle.
haha

right now i feel like sleeping.
haha.
i know i sound like a pig.
but had to wake up super early today morning.
to go somewhere.
but after that i kept finding time to sleep.

lessons that i can sleep tml:
-maths
-english
so sad only two lessons out of five.
haiz.

aye.
this is getting super random.
i guess i ll stop here.
shall go blog-hopping
:)))))))))))

today was okay.
schools were closed at 12.30
but it makes no difference to me.
cos lessons also ended at the same time on fridays.
lessons today were kinda normal.
english was half asleep throughout the lesson.
i was too tired wad.
haha.
than maths.
i didnt even stand up to greet the teacher.
was too busy sleeping lar.
didnt really listen
cos i was sleeping.
i m so not a pig ok
than chi.
normal.had spelling didnt really learn.
copied!
hahahaha.
geog.
ms lee took over ms sheela.
everyone was so spontaneous.
cos she chio is it?
bet the class guy were drooling.
haha.
joking.
she was so nice.
let us off early.

after lesson.
there was a fight? if u call that one
and someone ended up crying.
shall be nice and not say who.

later went shopping with joce.
first stop j8
was super crowded can.
than went to northpoint for lunch.
walked around.
haiz.
didnt buy anything.
didnt c anything i like?

tml's saturday.
shall wake up super late tml.
to replenish my lost sleep throghout the week.
a break from school.
haha.
see u ll when sch reopens!

was really pissed during lessons today.
sorry if i accidentally insulted anyone on the verge of anger.
today things just didnt go right lar.
several minute things are making me blow up.
probably one of the worst in class.
sorry to those sitting arnd me.
oh well.
after that i was a little better.
at least i think.
although there was a little anger in me still.
i shall not dwell on it anymore.

shall talk about the moe survey we did ytd.
it was a reality check.
it really kept me thinking about the answers.
some of the questions relate to me.
but there was a couple of repeat questions.
somehow the same thing but phrased differently?

ok now to netball trng today.
normal lar.
but went gyming.
haha.
was sooooooooooooo fun lar.
enjoying the aircon.
haha.
than had to go out to let the bball guys use.
did some drills.
played games.
i cut out quite a few i think.
i am bad at making decisions in a short time.
being aggresive?
there seems to be nth to push me

have been thinking about it.where is the passion?have i lose it somewhere
or is it inside me all the time.i think there is a spark but i m unsure.how can i get it back?

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!!
haha.
youth day holiday i mean.
feeling quite high right now.
aye i m just bored.
there is still a pile of homework to touchi've jus realised
haha.
actually today is the day where i turn 14yr and 1 month old.
okay that was super random lar.
oh yar i didnt know i was such a good blogger.
many ppl said my previous post was so touching.
*thank you, thank you* =DD
aye the previous post was meant to be sad cos i was sad wad.

okay let me talk about 010706
went for daphne's housewarming.
supposed to meet siangyee at 11.
i was late but still earlier than her.
we bought a gift for daphne.
took a long long ride from bus to mrt to lrt to reach her house.
went there and eat the food was nice
the curry as nice lar.sea cucumber/coconut is not nice lar.
than cher and lyn went to play maple.
i helped lyn get into aquila.
thank me.
and lyn i so do not want to play maple.
haha.
watch them play.
went home.
left daphne's hse at 7 and reach home at abt 8.30
so late right.
aye nvm.
haha.
oh yar. thank you daphne for ur hse and being such a great host. :)

ok i think i have to go off.
to do homework.
-spouts curses.
bye :)

couldnt blog ytd although i was so desperate to.
i was really depressed ytd.
seriously.
let me start with a higher note.
lessons boring.
but the fire drill thing.
arugh make us stand under the sun.
so hot somemore.

trng was ok.
kinda fun lar.
played something like telematch.
went to old court cos the security said we will disturb the exams.
it was fun.
but i was thinking in the train.
why must it be me?
somehow i dun think i make the cut.
i really felt like giving up my place instead.
u ll might think i am crazy
say that i lack self-confidence or anything.
seeing those tears, i felt like breaking down too.
i really cant bear to not know wad to say.
i know all of u put in a lot of effort.
but it is not the end.
the memories we had together are still playing back vividly in my mind.
we used to laugh,cry,suffer or be ourselves as a team.
i want life to be the way it was.
without one of u people there will be a missing piece in my life.
without u ll i would not have made so far.
i know i cant keep clinging on to the past.
life must move on.
things will change.
but it to stay the same.
i dun want to u all of u cry.
i would rather be in ur place.
i love u all loads.
all u of u have a special place in my heart.

so smile.